Excruciating Pain: A Personal Battle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.

But leading specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with abortive treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Kenneth Morrison
Kenneth Morrison

A passionate outdoor enthusiast and certified hiking guide with over a decade of experience exploring Canada's wilderness.